love, friendships, relationships...all those ships

though vulnerability allows us to be susceptible to be broken at times...it seems like an ok sacrifice to make in order to both live with meaning yet without regret.

so much of the time we sit back and protect our hearts from potential harm. we say things we don't mean & fail to say things we do mean in order to preserve some kind of a hold on everything. this gives us the idea we are in some way keeping ourselves safe from what might hurt us. but how else can we experience the fullness of life without doing things that put ourselves at risk? i'm not talking about doing something without using common sense - but you know what i mean, right?

so here's to taking risks in life, stepping out, and making ourselves vulnerable. to "love, friendships, relationships...all those ships" i'd much rather make the most of what life throws at me than to sit back and play it "safe."

β€œTo love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.”
- C.S. Lewis

sleep to dream

all right so the raddest dream happened to me. just to keep you informed...everything in my dreams is super dark and desaturated. but this is broken with momentary spotlights of bright color and light. this one was mostly dark and involved a lot of climbing on shelves.

so in the dream, dan and i found a secret passageway through an attic in my closet that led to some other world. we told everybody. we wanted everybody else to see it, but when I tried to explain how to get there no one believed it was possible, because it was totally illogical. it was pretty funny because even while dreaming i was thinking how much the dream was ripping off CS Lewis' story.

So the only way you could get to this land was to climb straight up, stepping on dressers and clothes. as you climb you realize the shelves are turning into earth and you're climbing through the ground and onto a grass field.

When we arrived we stood in this right green field. i looked a couple feet away and there was a huge polar bear walking around. it had to be 20 feet tall. i just stood there and watched it for a while without moving. it was one of those really happy moments when you feel really helpless and small. But it doesn't seem to matter because you're looking at something so amazing, you stop thinking about yourself completely.



anyways it was amazing.

welcome to the office

every time the paper shredder gets used in our office i think of this...